New Years Resolution - Express to Success
#freewrite
I'm going to be honest with you. I just want to get something out. I need to pour out elements of my spirit to walk a little lighter. I need to paint blank canvases with colors of my perspective to demonstrate authenticity. There is so much for me to plan, so much I am working on, but I am not feeling productive. To overcome the toiling process of aiming for perfection or even completion, I'm just going to share what I have. It's not the most that I have. It's not my best. But it is something and for now, that has to be enough.
All the developmental milestones that I strived for on this path of achieving success have just about been met. I've obtained my Masters of Education. I have my Doctorate of Philosophy. I graduated from Spelman. Yet, I still feel incomplete. I take the time to be vulnerable, because it is in my vulnerability that I will find my clarity.
I feel incomplete, because I don't feel like I have enough financial resources to calm my mind, take care of my body, heal my spirit, fit into society and just feel good in general. There are better days than others all the time, but on the larger scale, I feel stuck. At first I understood it, and I leave room for the fact that I need rest and recovery. I've had more time than others get to rest. The ball of life does not stop. Every day, every night I am stimulated by something that urges me to do more. I think I've rested enough in the state that I am. There is more to do so that I can rest in health, productivity, happiness and peace.
My mind isn't stagnant. My body is constantly moving. I understand the power of being still, but while I am moving, I am going to try to transfer this energy to something positive. Thus, this blog was born.
I've decided to dedicate sometime to jotting down thoughts related to wellbeing. My personal has always served my professional goals well. I'm taking this time to try something new and creating the space for me to exist.
I am creating this space for me to exist. I need a place to exist without critique. While I am aware that I am writing to share, this is for me. I stand here as myself and welcome others to come as they would like for their benefit. Things will not be perfect. This really is a creative space for elements of my services to emerge and be reworked for later presentation. This is a blog to share some of these many thoughts I have. I'll do better one day, but today I just want to do.
The beginning of the journey is this first step. It feels more like a crawl after the strain I've taken myself through in the name of development, but we will talk more about that later. I'm still shaking off the growing pains of greatness.
I don't know much, but what I do know I will share. I know that sharing something will be better than having nothing.
This is the introductory post. Right now, I'm just trying to get 2 post a month down. Next steps, I hope to elaborate on this theme of Express to Success. I'll share how I've learn the importance of expression through the journey of trying to suppress myself. Hopefully, others will be able to relate and gain something from what I share. Hopefully, pouring enough of this gunk out of my mind will get me closer to what to the content and valuable knowledge, and presentation of that knowledge, I'm looking for.
If you can, share your thoughts with me please. I need the support. I want to engage. And I'm practicing. Practicing communicating, practicing expressing, practicing engaging. Practicing being me, less apologetically.
Thanks for your time and energy.
- Dr. TayTold'ya
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